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DND

You might've noticed that I've been MIA for almost the last week, and I assure you that it's for a reason. Just like my phone is on DND mode, so am I. I'm currently taking a business and social media break until next year. My Instagram is deactivated but all of my other socials are still up, mainly because I don't know how to deactivate them or if that's possible, either way, I didn't check. Instagram is my most used social platform and that's why I didn't want to have any access of it because I was using it as a distraction from what I was going through and I realized that i needed to take time for myself. The importance of taking time for myself is something that I don't want to lose sight of, so in 2024, I'm going to make sure that I do more of that, and I hope that all of you will too. Recently, my panic disorder has been more of a pain than usual. Extreme bouts of anxiety and panic attacks seem to be the norm right now, but I suppose what else is new? I've discussed having anxiety and having panic attacks before but it's honestly not something that I like to repeat too often. Panic attacks are debilitating for me and each one causes me to go down a spiral of depression, so you can imagine what that has meant for my mental and emotional health as of late. It's difficult to talk to people about these things because the responses that I've gotten over the years are... honestly, I can't think of a word for it aside from negative. For reference, this is not an invitation to advise me on what I should be doing or how I should be acting because that's what my cognitive behavioral therapist is for, even if I'm not currently seeing him. Things like this are a touchy subject and I tend to get really snappy when people start spewing their opinions, which typically come from an uneducated place. I personally hate getting snappy, but I have a difficult time regulating my emotions when anxiety or panic are involved. There's honestly only one person aside from my therapist that I can relate to when it comes to these things because this is a part of her daily life, as well. I had never met someone that understands ancxiety, panic attacks, agoraphobia, and extreme driving anxiety until I met her, and I know that the universe put us two together for an important reason. If you're reading this, know that I love you lots. 

 

I have a habit of deactivating my page at random when the going gets real tough cause that's my sign to regroup and de-stress. I can't even do my job as a business owner when I'm down in the dumps, especially given the work that I do, so taking care of myself has to remain my priority always. All readings that were booked with me had already been sent out, so I didn't see a problem with disappearing, but I did feel like I should write this up to tell all of you. This is a reminder that I'm not some sort of invincible mystical creature that doesn't have to deal with real life. I'm just a human that deals with life the best way that she can and sometimes that means crawling back into my hermit shell. I don't always want to be seen and sometimes I need solo time to sort through my thoughts and feel my feelings. My main focus right now is myself and turning my sight inward, rather than outward. I can't pour from an empty cup, and neither can you. Don't forget how important you are and how you too need to tend to your own needs. You can't always be everyone's everything and that's probably a lifelong lesson for many, me included. I'm planning to reappear in January, possibly the first week of the month, but that depends on how I feel. I'm not in a rush and I'm truly enjoying my time away because it was much needed. I miss you all and I can't wait to connect once I'm back<3

 

Here are some tips for Mercury Retrograde because, yes, it's that time of the year again.

  • Save your files and projects that you're working on. The save button is your friend, not your enemy.

  • Beware of spam and scams. I always notice an increase in spam and scams during Mercury rx. Don't click on any unfamiliar links. Don't respond to any job offers that feel off. Look for typos and for sentences that are worded in a weird way because that's a great way to tell. 

  • Update your passwords.

  • Technology will probably be acting funny or may even break, so do lots of grounding work during this time to keep your head on straight.

  • Just because someone tries to come back into your life does not mean that you have to let them. It's ok to say no. An apology without changed behavior makes the apology void. 

  • You may be revisiting past themes and situations at this time. Remember that you don't have to make the same decisions that you did in the past. Use what you've learned to your advantage. 

  • If you have your birth chart handy, then take a look at the house that this retrograde will be affecting and that can help you get an idea of the themes that you will be revisting during this time. The house that will be affected by Mercury rx in my chart has no planets in it, so I also took a look at the house where the planetary ruler of that sign sits in my chart. That sentence is confusing, so let me break it down. In sidereal astrology, Mercury is retrograding in the sign of Sagittarius. The planetary ruler of Sagittarius is Jupiter, so I looked at where Sag is in my chart and also looked to where Jupiter sits in my chart. If you're looking to get an astrology reading, then I recommend booking one with one of my faves, Reina. She's also an amazing tarot reader. Click here to check out her services.

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